can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all

it’s been a really long time since i’ve been on here. a lot of has changed and not the way i wanted it to.

it fucking sucks when you give someone everything- all of you- and invest yourself in them completely, only for them to disregard all of that and throw it away like it was nothing.

fifteen months i spent with you, loving you and caring for you and doing everything in my ability to make you happy but i guess that isn’t enough sometimes

i only wish for another chance to show you how much you mean to me and how i would do anything just to be able to call you mine

all i can do is wait but i don’t know how long i can do that. going from talking to you every minute of every day to strained silence over weeks is the worst thing 

and it just hurts more because you seem so happy and relieved and over it and everything that i’m not

the worst part is that i still love you so fucking much after all that you’ve done in these past few weeks and i would take you back faster than you could imagine if you asked me to

there’s no way i could ever get over our amazing memories and everything we’ve ever been through in just three weeks and i really hope that you haven’t

because the hope i have for you coming back is the only thing that i have right now

i guess i’ll update it some time. hopefully things have changed for the better when i do.

8/24/13 3:17 am

take it easy, i’m new at this.

gabe!!! this is gabe one of my closest friends that i’ve ever had and he’s simply the best. smh i can’t believe i couldn’t find a better quality picture after over two years or so but whatever. anyway gabe is an incredible friend who i’ve had so so so many great times with and i’m super happy he’s been one of my best friends for so long because i don’t know where i’d be without him!! if you have him in your life consider yourself lucky! love him lots

please let exams go quickly pls pls pls i’m so bad at studying and under pressure this is horrible i just want summer sigh

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Futile Devices - Sufjan Stevens
When I sleep on your couch I feel very safe
And when you bring the blankets I cover up my face
I do love you, I do love you

easily one of my favorite songs of all time
so beautiful sounding and the lyrics are perfect and simple but so meaningful at the same time like this song actually means so much to me 

love love love this song, so different from everything else on the album, but still so beautiful and it contrasts perfect against the electronic-ness of the the rest, i love this song so much i can’t even explain

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Dress Me Like a Clown | Margot and the Nuclear So & So’s

literally one of my all time favourite songs. so important to me and so good and just fantastic. “i am alive, i am alive, and that is the best that i can do” what a simple but true lyric ugh

jonny!! sigh ok this is my boyfriend/best friend jonathan and he’s really an amazing and fantastic person, i could go on for hours about how great he is and how much of a positive impact he has had on my life for the past 7 months but yeah. i just love him a whole lot so so so much and am really lucky to have found such an amazing person who appreciates italian food and the xx the way i do ahh(ps hi ian in the back smfh)

update on my last sad post it’s just whenever i do anything good like get a good grade or something it’s never good enough for her but the second i do anything wrong even the smallest thing it’s a huge deal and i’m literally just sitting here bawling and she loves it she fucking loves it i’m so done with this ugh


sigh my mom does nothing but make me miserable, it really sucks and i’m so sick of it but i have nothing to do about it she just loves seeing me upset it’s her favourite thing i hate it


woo hoo today was actually a great day i’m happy as a clam and i’ve got lots to look forward to so all is well yay